Try to list your 4 strong points.
Just four are needed but you should be sure you definitely have them.
Ok, you've got one, probably, if you're lucky, you've got two - they just come straight out of your hand rather then mind and get on the paper as if they've always been there.
Fine, two more are left - these two which welcome you to hell. A self-created hell, kept in exellent condition just for occasions like this. You plounge into yourself, in this dark ocean of doubts and search. The problem is you try to be honest with yourself and this honesty is the toughest thing as you cannot run from yourself, cannot just turn around and go away. You anyway know the truth, or better to say you can easily tell if you're lying or cheating.

How come you resemble a baloon so much? How come there are holes there, inside, and you just do not arrive in filling them up. You just cannot catch the insiration and make yourself use it to fill in these holes. You let it go by you, touch it slightly and it passes by, leaving you even more rotten from inside as a new hole of disgust appears inside there.

Everyone gets tired, it is just harder to get rid of being tired of yourself, though definitely worth trying.
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